Well... I think I know the answer Linda.
But first let me say, I know that place very well. That place where everything I think I want seems so elusive. Where I feel like I've done so much work on myself and still I end up feeling isolated and alone or worse, heartbroken.
Almost two years into the dissolving of my former life as 'his wife' (see previous posts for more about that), I have a healthy respect for having my heart broken.
Yes a broken heart absolutely, positively SUCKS! Whether it's the loss of a loved one or the end of a cherished relationship - it's extremely painful. I know that pain, I'm on a first name basis with grief.
But I also understand the power of a broken heart. When you listen to Linda's lyrics "I've been cheated, been mistreated", they are like the blue prints of the hidden beliefs the song writer has about life. We all have these thoughts that somehow get seeded into us. If we don't pay attention, if we don't weed them out, well.... they tend to grow and eventually blossom.
The power of the broken heart is that it stirs everything up so we can begin to see what wants to be healed besides our heart. It is usually some form of blame or shame. Neither of these things will lead us to our greater good. Yet if we are willing to look at our internal victim and its persona just long enough to let our negative ideas surface, we can press into them and begin the process of releasing our hidden beliefs. Once we let go of our victimhood we can begin to reveal a more intrinsic truth about ourselves.
What's underneath those misinformed feelings is our worthiness and the truth of our wholeness. When we can begin to catch a glimpse of this, when we can begin to lean in and be willing to love ourselves, well, that's when we'll be loved.
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